sweet :: sour :: heart :: soul: January 2012

السلام عليكم

Hai guys!!... I think it's been a long time since November 2011 we didn't chat yet... Feel like it seems dah lama & dah berhabuk blog ni rasanya... so, for today, i feel like wanna update some of my "recents activity... the latest one is my attachment day...

On that time, during last years' summer, i got a chance untuk deliver a normal delivery & got a chance to deliver the cute baby! ^_^

On that time, i really feel so excited... sbb one of the besic knowledge & preparations for medical student is experiences.. Kata org, nnt senang time nk kerja nnt... wah,,,on that time, only Allah knows how much i feel and see the pain of a mother utk melahirkan seorang anak... i feel so touch mak... thanks mak sbb lahirkan saya dkt dunia ni.. thanks for all the thought, bebelan, every marah2 tu, on that time, i feel really appreciated... sbb you can see a struggle between a die & life in front of your own eyes!.. terharu time tu...

Rasa nk nangis pon ada...*hu2, actually mmg dh nangis dh time tu... balik je dari attachment, i text my mom... wish kat mak,

Me: "Salam mak,mak apa khabar? rindunya dekat mak...rindu dekat ayah..

Mak sihat? mak, wah(gelaran saya dkt mak ^_~) nk ckp, thanks sbb

lahirkan wah.. thanks sbb sabar melayan kerenah anak2 mak yg berbagai

mcm ragam esp. anak mak yg sorang ni... thanks for all your sacrifices.. i

deep down cannot repay all of your kindness mak.. only Allah can repay..

truely mak deep down in my heart, i always love u mak..tQ mak! I won't

disaapoint you mak to see me graduate succefully...tQ mak! tQ :'( "

Mak: "Hurmm, yelah...xde pape tu..mak xnk pape, semua mak sama.. Cuma

nk tgk ank2 dia berjaya, membesar dgn sihat, jadi manusia yg berguna,

berjaya & jadi anak yg mnjdi mata hati penyejuk mata mak ayah...nnt

bsk bila mak&ayh dh xde[ok, ayat yg plg saya xsuka nk dgr dari mulut

mak ayah sendiri..sedih dgr :(] nnt, korg semua jelah harapan mak

ayah..jadi saham akhirat mak ayah nnt...Belajarlah sungguh2.. bkn utk

mak ayah je, tp utk diri engkau sendiri...[ok, yg ni mmg ayt yg plg

terharu skali...mmg rasa sebak time ni..xtipu..bygkn mak ckp dkt kita

mcm tu...]"

Me: "minta-maaf mak, halalkn segala2nya..doakn ank mak yg tgh

belajar ni..:') I'll do my very2 best for Allah & for you..YES! I won't play

anymore...TQ mak...:') "

To every moms out there, thanks for grow us up.. thanks for every of your advices.. walaupon kdg2 rasa "sakit hati+panas" je dgr nasihat tu, but we know, at least, with the 1,000,000 nasihat tu kami akn ingt sampai bila2 dn turunkan dkt generasi ank-cucu kami spya amalan + nasihat & pahala tu ttp mengalir sampai bila2... utk mak&ayah juga.. terima mak, ayah..=)

Time sesi pencerahan attachment round from one of our seniors yg kebetulan at the same time buat attachment jugak.. mmg bgs!

Ok, time ni 1st time saya msk ward. Rasa mcm dh clinical year student dah..

Mmg sgt cuak. 1st ward yg msk; RICU.. ada 4 critical patients.. Mmg sgt takut, nervous, risau + sedih sbb tgk atuk2 ni semuanya critical.. Mmg terharu tgk..sedih tgk dorg ni.. mana x nya, 1patient=7-8 penyakit.. Allah, mmg sgt sedih tgk...rasa insaf dibuatnya.. hargai masa sihat sblm sakit...

Antara sakit2 yg saya ingat, Breast cancer, jaundice, Heart failure, liver failure, ada sampai kena buat mastectomy, + byk lagi...saya xingt sbb x belajar lagi..mmg sedih tgk pakcik2 & makcik2 ni.. tp, saya dpt azam baru bila tgk patient2 ni, mesti semangat belajar+study, sbb kalau x, kita boleh menyebabkan kematian seseorang.. So, xkisahlah apa pon subjek yg anda pegang, berusahalah dgn sungguh2, setiap pekerjaan ada amanahnya...ok?

Dkt nephrology department...tgh ada biliary surgical..

O&G department..my 1st time sambut baby through normal delivery... Pict captured by one of my boys' groupmate.. dia takut nk tgk + segan sbb semuanya perempuan dkt situ... mmg rugi..*tp, paham je*